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i feel so sad..relli feeling depressed...do i realli hav to act to be happy all the time?must it be like that?will you be happy only after i got sad..cant we be happy altogether?why isnt there a sholder for me to cry on?i am troubled.i find myself useless at times...cant i be happy?cant i feel wat i wan to feel?when can i stop my act?when?tis is depressing..i feel like running away...i feel like hiding in a hole forever...i nid some1..anione..whoever..save me..bring me to pluto..n let me stay there forever..nxt year..new class..at least there will b a difference..pls......dun leave me..i wan no one else but u..u n onli u...if u get bored..bear with it...i m already use to it....pls...


































i can always try to be interesting..


u are not there when i nid u..i wan talk to u..n onli u .. u are the onli 1 in class that i can talk to..abt how i realli actalli is feeling now...i nid to talk to u..to tell u how i realli feels now..cos thr is a huge tear in my heart..unable to sew it back..tis is so sad..mayb i realli didi like u..mayb i had not..i dun even noe myself..i just have to talk..















but u are not there...


i noe it is hard to accept..but tis is the fact..if u wan to go to hell..go forward..nobody is stopping u..i was just trying to tell u tat the onli way to heaven is tru christ..but oh my!!!pls..must u do tat to me??i was NOTTT!!!argueing k?i didnt hav to..my stand is always rite..argueing wif u means..wasting my breath..n pls..veron..u are a christain too..not onli did u stop me..u even "side them"..i jus wanted to spread the gospel..u r trying to destroy their life..some ppl do nid a bit of pushing..nt all will b so guai n follow u to church..let me tell u..church for non-believers are BORING..u cant let them "see for themselves.."PLEASE!!open ur eyes wake up!!if u still love them..why dun do now..since u are so pro..why hasnt vivian step into ur church b4 n c for herself..??!!i tried asking her to come but no..she have not see for herself yet!not all ppl or church can let ppl realise n feel that God exist..that God loves them..pls..i m realli getting seriousli feedup..i dun wan to stay in the clique of urs..i rather explore..!!!


y mus it b like tis..dun mind me saying tis but..i m realli starting to hate ppl...close frens..mayb even in church..fine..mayb is not to the state of hating but perhaps dislike..espcialli ppl hu likes to critisize..when they themselves are not much beter..or even worse..i find it so unfair when sum1 critisize my bro..why do every1 tink tat all he is is jus a naughty little prankster..but actualli..he is the most adorable brother ever..ppl doest trust tat he will bhave if he go on the mission trip..but actualli..he is one of the most responsible boy i had ever seen..in sch..there is a mooncake festival..he is in charge of drinks..he stand all dae long to guard the stall..well,they think tat he will not be any help in the mission trip n play all the way..isnt it wat trhey are doing on the mission trip now??!!oh pls..xiao pang oso play all the way thr..he is not much better than my bro..and still..during service..the verses that 0203 xin xin ku ku make rite..when a group of ppl start to take tat down..including my bro..all the arrow is towards him when it break..but NO!!he break none..he did not even break a single 1..oh pls it has nthing to do with him..pls..if u r blind then dun anyhow shoot arrows at ppl..n pls dun talk bad abt him bhind his or my bck..n ya..ppl say he cant sing alot of christain songs..so?wats the big deal if he cant sing alot..at least he knew abit..i confess that he knows more pop songs then christain songs..so?does dis make him bad?oh pls..if he realli sings..u may b Q-ing for his album..he is learning okay?!n pls..my brother is far better than urs!!sry to tell u the truth..i noe it is hard for u to take that in but..pls accept the fact..u made me angry..n made me mad..so pls..my brother has nthing against all of u..he is young n may make mistake..forgive him den..then i shall forgive u..







daddy,i seriously do miss u...can u cm bck frm china?faster will u..i do not always please u,makin u angry all the while...i m sorry...now i hav to go to sch alone...it is a veri sad thing..cos i will be cold n everything in the mrt alone.dad,i wan u bck hm now,seriousli.i noe its not like u will not return...u r just away for 10 daes...but i m realli missing u..realli...i miss u.......


i dun care anithing animore..i hate the way i m living now..almost fail everying..its so sad..i dun like the way ppl see me as...i dun like the way i m treated..i feel..bad..its hard to live on this planet earth..its hard..but i could always try to make things better..make it a place that human can live in..i noe..we can live in tis world now..corrupted n not the way God has planned it to be..however..God noes everything..jus that we humans are unaware that we are destroying our own life..leading ovrselves towards death..pls wake up n turn towards wat is rite..hell is not whr u wanna go..seriously..

Stacia aka yi qi
orh orh
gurl, 15, 08'02'1993'
I'm living in my own world. I'm a christain, dancer, and alot more lahh!!


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Foods : icecream,dark choco,kimchi,food?
Movies : ALOT?except horror..please..
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