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Friday, January 4, 2008,9:30 PM
back to the daes i m suppose to b...
,8:57 PM
after a min...i still feel sad..n lost..n seriousli confused...i dunno...hav been reading purpose driven life..but even after knowing my purpose of living...smtimes..i will still find no meaning in it...why cant i jus go to heaven straight?i dun wan to stay on earth n feel sad...i wan to stay on earth to feel happy...but smtimes..i m too tired to feel happy...every1 is tired too i guess..tats why they dun bother much...
seriousli la...u giv me chocolates..then u make me angry again...u make me angry..then u suddenli so nice to me again...wat do u ppl wan me to do..i m lost...blinded..duno where to go..at first..u were all nice n everything..okay..mayb fight a little..but tats wat friends are for..but nw..u call me weird names..tat i seriousli hate...pls la...dun do tis to me..n ya...another person...u use to shun when i m near..then u say stuff that seriousli hurt me..then..suddenli...u are so nice to me again...ppl..dun twir me run and run..cos i will go giddy...n fall eventualli...and when i fall..i dun get up tat easili...
mayb becos i m still young n not noe anything...i always hav tis urge to get into a relationship..which i noe i m nt suppose to...never suppose to untill i reach 18.19.20.21...ya...either age..jus nt now...but wats the use anyway...nth will happen..ya...sadzz...
,8:47 PM
i feel like cryin...jus finish watching a movie...then ya...in a seriously bad mood...i dunno why...i realli wan to cry...but there is no sholder for me to lean on..nobody actualli cares...mayb cos they dunno..but seriously...this is sad...i realli dun like this kinda feeling...
seriousli...nobody cares..mayb u do..but u dun realli do it the right way at the right time..i feel so sad..now i noe why...why...ya...nvm...n i realli understand le...tink i jus hav to focus more..on my studies n on God...i feel so sad...dunno why....
how i wish to hate...but i cant..why lai tat..U make me feel weird...sch is weird..too quiet...for a half pur half combine science class...too quiet..guys too childish..girls too bimbotic...i dunno...
diff ppl hav diff thinking i guess...i find the girls flirting irritating..but i dunno if i m anot..if i did..i didnt mean it...i realli did not...wats the use of flirting with a guy u never actualli like...even if realli like...then i dunno...but if u think i m flirting tell me..quietli..i will stop wat i m doin..cos i realli dun noe...anywayss...i feel lost...lost in my way...do i turn right or left nw?i dunno...
i nid help in my studies...i dunno who to go to..every1 seems to be busy in their own studies...so ya...
Tuesday, January 1, 2008,4:22 PM
i like..i love..i......
i dunno la....now..my feelings are all mixed up..dun do tis to me..u or u?i dunno...then u tell me nt so early..n u ask me to be careful...u suddenly bcome so nice to me..n u always hav been..but u and u always gang up n bully me..then make u always tackle me..telling me the other u hav been looking at me..aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so mani u...then wat am i suppose to do?